Chapter 70.
Lu Yao looked at me quietly, for a while all three of them fell silent, as if they had lost their voices.
The little ghost is still panicked and dropped to sit on the side of the, I looked at his appearance, his body constantly trembling, obviously very afraid. Compared to him, I had more of an inexplicable complex feeling in my heart, as if I had a lot to say, but didn't know where to start.
Lu Yao faintly looked at the two of us and suddenly squatted down, wanting to come and pull my hand, but was subconsciously avoided by me. She froze for a moment, that hand stopped in the air before finally slowly retracting it.
I don't know what she thought in her mind, but the look on her face was a bit gloomy, and after a moment's pause, she opened her mouth and said to me, Tan Xi, I have something, I want to say to you.
I did not answer, even the idea of connecting the words are not, just silently looking at her. She eyes some expectations, slowed down for a while, and finally raised his hand, also regardless of whether I am willing, a pull me up, gesture turn around and go.
Strangely enough, I didn't struggle, just stood up with her. Behind the brat panicked, busy shouted me, said Tan Xi, you can not go with her ah ……
I looked back at him, Lu Yao similarly looked at him, the little ghost words had not finished, hard swallowed back.
I know what he is worried about, this feeling, just like every time I hit a ghost that kind of despair, I have a lot of words want to ask Lu Yao, there are a lot of things want to confirm with her, but this go, whether it is bad or good luck, I have no idea in my own heart, but I know that if I now stay in place and do not move, then the little ghosts and I do not have one can get out of the way.
Therefore, I thought for a moment, nodded toward the little ghost, said a all right, you first go ……
The little ghost wanted to say something else, but in front of Lu Yao, he could never reveal what was in his heart.
I silently looked at him for a while, Lu Yao gently pulled me, and without saying another word, he left with her.
Lu Yao and I didn't say a word along the way, it felt like time passed very, very slowly, just like the road under your feet doesn't have an end. I don't know how long we walked before we returned to the hotel.
The attendant at the front desk gave me a look, I guess my appearance, had already been memorized in her head, but fortunately she just curiously sized me up for a bit, didn't show too much of anything.
We went up the stairs until we came to the door of my room, I reached out and pulled out my room card, and walked in one after the other with Lu Yao. As soon as the door to my room closed, my heart just tightened.
I don't know what kind of expression was on my face right now, but it was definitely much heavier than usual. I stood in the doorway and didn't move inside, Lu Yao glanced at me and suddenly sighed softly, as if she was a little disappointed in this reaction of mine.
She then walked to the side of my bed first, and suddenly tensed her face, and coldly drank towards the underside of the bed board, roll!
I immediately heard a rumbling sound under the bed, as if something was banging around underneath for a bit, the sound lasted for just a few seconds, and then suddenly calmed down.
I thought that the female ghost under the bed had probably already run away, and Lu Yao's action, on the contrary, made me even more terrified.
Seeing that there were only the two of us in this room, she turned around and looked at me fixedly.
I side away from her gaze, do not dare to look at her eyes, can only look at one side of the wall, took the lead and asked, you are not Lu Yao……
She opened her mouth, her voice surprisingly calm, said yes, I am not Lu Yao.
The two of us are like idiots standing at opposite ends of the room, I looked at her, she was calm and collected, not flashing or hiding. My emotions seem to be suppressed to the extreme, the heart of the question at once asked out, said Why are you pretending to be her, why do you want to approach me!
She was slightly silent for a moment before she opened her mouth and said, Tan Xi, I have lied to you, but think about it, have I done anything to hurt you over this period of time? Not bad, I am a ghost, as you can see, but if I can, do you think I don't want to live well and be an ordinary person!
I was momentarily surprised, there are always people who would say that living is scarier than dying, but after I went through all of this, I also understood that in fact, whether it's a human or a ghost, they all have their own unspeakable things to say, just like how I felt when I became a living soul.
But she just so directly put this out of the mouth, I myself never thought of the answer, just the soul out of the body, but also hope that I can still live well in this world.
Lu Yao suddenly smiled miserably, she sat down on the sofa, looking at the window gradually bright sunshine, said when I was alive, I did not live a good life, but when I died, only to feel that the days of the past, although a little bit of bitterness, but it is also much better than the present, look at my current appearance, even if the skin is painted beautifully, but it is always not the original me.
I lowered my eyes, listening to this, the heart suddenly a little sour feeling, she really did not do anything wrong to me, and up to now, but also helped a lot of help, but my heart can never let go of that sense of resistance, which may be human nature, as the saying goes, not my kind of heart must be different, there will be exclusion of the heart exists.
I leaned against the wall, Moran looked at her, she suddenly turned back to her face, the face can not be seen in the slightest place not like a person.
Lu Yao suddenly smiled and said, You asked me why I pretended to be Lu Yao and why I approached you? Tan Xi, what do you think I did it for?
I didn't even think about it, I directly said out of my mouth, for the bloodper!
Her laughter was suddenly louder, but there was a hidden feeling of some bleakness, and after a long time, she suddenly said, What is the use of bloodper …… I want that thing. I dressed up as Lu Yao, just because she is the person who appeared in the most sad and despondent time, at that time you, you need a person by your side, she appeared, and you believe her.
Of course I knew what she was referring to, which was me at the time of Tintin's murder and Lin Tian Frequent's death. I was very helpless at that time, and I really hoped that someone trustworthy would help me. It was then that I met Lu Yao. Perhaps it's easier to open up to someone when you're in a desperate situation, and it's easier to deepen your defenses against strangers when you've stabilized.
But I was still delighted to hear this, and asked Lu Yao if she was still alive.
She suddenly stood up and took a step towards me, saying Lu Yao is naturally alive, do you think I will harm her?
I was asked speechless, stammered for half a day, only to say a sentence, but you are a stern ghost ah ……
She face look quite unwilling, said, even if I am a ghost, but and she has no grievances, want her life to do what, I just pretend to be her appearance only. She is still on your old side of the family, living the life of a thousand gold lady.
I do not know how to refute her, at least her current appearance, is a woman, it is difficult for me to connect her with the skeleton before, only to not speak.
She saw my anger soften and said, you just asked me why I approached you right?
I nodded my head.
She continued, to put it simply, I had been favored by your mother once upon a time, although she still couldn't help me in the end, but I remembered this friendship in my heart. Now she's dead too, but I'm not the kind that doesn't know how to be grateful, and approached you just so I could help you in secret for a while.
When I heard the mention of my mother, my brows furrowed, so she had dealt with my mother at one point in time, but even if it was as she said, but why pretend to be Lu Yao, and during this period of time, the trouble that I encountered had no tendency to diminish.
I said the question in my heart. She smiled faintly, said, Tan Xi, some things you encountered, always have to face, although I can help you drive away the ghosts attracted, but I can not always be by your side, I try to dress up as a human face, but I am not a human being after all, and I have been with me for a long time, your body will also slowly collapse.
She walked further towards me, and continued, I now, just want to stay here as an ordinary person, when you have nothing now, as a person, and you will be able to bear the horror of those experiences that you will meet in the future, I will try to converge their own breath, so as not to let the other ghosts and monsters realize my identity, in addition to the necessary time, I will not take action, all the trouble that you encountered, you have to rely on your own! I'll try to restrain my breath so that other ghosts won't realize my identity.
When I heard this, I was very puzzled in my heart, what she meant was that she wanted to let herself stay beside me as an ordinary person, as if there is a saying that a person's pain, if two people bear it, only one-half of it is left.
This is a kind of invisible encouragement, she will hardly help me do anything, but just in the realization, let you know you are not alone, there are always people will accompany you in life and death as well. But alas, she wasn't human after all, and even more alas, I found out who she was.
I was silent for a long time, not sure how to continue this conversation, what she did from the beginning until now, plus everything she said, now that I think about it, she did think about me. I wish I could trust her and treat her like I used to, but who she is is like a knot in my heart that is always hard to let go of.
In the end, I can only say one thing, I know …… that all of the severe ghosts will harm people ……
She froze for a moment and suddenly turned her body toward the door, and I heard her whisper, Tan Xi, I will harm people, but I will not harm you, if you are afraid, I can leave. If you are still willing to trust me, then I will wait for you in my room, one day, think about it.
I did not have any response, did not even look at her back, just listen to her words fell, and then heard the door closed "bang" a light sound, the room suddenly cold, I was the only one standing in place, staring blankly at the pattern on the floor.
After a long time, I slowly squatted down, holding my feet, I now feel as if standing at the intersection, there are two roads in front of me to choose, Lu Yao stood in one of them, the road is narrow but sunny, the other spacious but dark and gloomy.
I held my head, not knowing which road to step towards.