Chapter 30: The Choice
After we said goodbye from my second uncle's house, I walked home with my old dad, tonight was another moonless night, I don't know how to describe my mood at this moment. After more than twenty years of father-son relationship, it seems that overnight there is a huge wall between me and my pops, a wall that suffocates me.
"Dad, I seem to understand how you felt when you found out about Grandpa's secret, because I'm feeling the same way you are right now." I said to my old man, and it was a very bitter thing to say.
"I understand. Only when you are a parent yourself, you know how your grandfather felt, San-liang, there are some things that I have to hide from you, but there are some things that I really don't want to hide from you either, for reasons that are unknown to me. Perhaps among the many things you know lately, your great-grandfather Guo Zhongyong was in your life. Your Great Grandfather Guo Zhongyong is a thief in your consciousness, a thieving courtier just like that traitorous Cixi, he may be very powerful, but he is definitely not a good person. Right?" My old man asked me.
"Maybe, other than that, what he did to Empress Dowager Ci'an and planting lotus roots on top of heads alone makes me have no favorable impression of him as a person. But it's understandable, everyone has their own way of living." I said.
– "I'm even more curious about the cause of my Great Grandfather's death, according to what we've learned recently, it's a reversal of everything that came before. He definitely wouldn't have been disobediently executed because of the matter of the dragon vein, so what was the matter that led to the Guo family's extermination tragedy back then?" I asked.
After asking, I froze. Because I realized that the whole mystery was getting bigger and bigger, I originally wanted to ask my old man what was going on in the middle of the pagoda. But by now, it was even pulled onto my Great Grandfather, and I realized that it all, it all seemed to be a thread.
"Why this expression?" My old man asked me with a smile.
"I feel like everything is a thread, yet it's more like a fog." I said.
"Yes, a line, Guo family people, all work for it, three two, I can tell you this, your great grandfather Guo Zhongyong may not be a good person but definitely not a bad person, back then with the actions of Cixi, in the chaos of the world to protect oneself this is inevitable, but I ask you, if a person has the talent of the sky and the earth, is it a choice to choose for the sake of honor and glory to die generously good, or even though Temporarily living in power and wealth, for the future to make plans for the good?" My old dad suddenly asked me.
"All I know is that I have learned an ancient poem that says that life has no death since the beginning of time." I laughed bitterly.
"You are wrong, this kind of people die, in fact, not half the value, relatively, they are also very selfish, in order to die for their own reputation, in the country and the people do not have the slightest contribution, even though full of experience what is the use?" My old dad said.
After saying that, he seemed to realize that the conversation between the two of us tonight was a bit too vapid, or more like two great sages talking, which didn't fit our status.
"After everyone comes the little family." My old man said.
"Dad, we're all peasants, so don't tell me too much about this kind of reasoning, even though it sounds very high end, but for now, I'm more interested in the truth of the whole thing." I said.
My old man hesitated and said, "Come with me."
–I followed my old man to a piece of land, and my old man found a shovel and dug out the white jade altar with it, looking like he really wanted to confess all this to me.
After digging out the altar, he said to me, "After seeing what's inside this altar, you'll feel that everything doesn't seem to be that complicated, and it does seem to be that complicated."
The altar was right in front of me, my old man didn't stop me from taking out the contents of this altar, I looked at him and he even nodded to me, "Open it."
I at this time even no longer know fear, also do not know fear for what, I grabbed out of the altar a small boy wearing a small green jacket, this small boy and that ghost baby is not the same, the ghost baby's soul may have grown up, but the corpse is still the appearance of a newborn.
Because before I heard my old man said before my grandfather thing, so I glance to the back of the head of this dead baby, I saw a steel needle, just look at a glance, I found this steel needle and before my old man described to me different.
Previously I thought that what my grandfather had inserted into the back of this head was an ordinary steel needle, now I found a steel needle, but this was more similar to a hairpin, it had a steel needle at the front end and a lotus mark at the back end.
It was more similar to a lotus needle, so to speak.
I wanted to pull out this lotus needle, but my old man stopped me at this time, he said, "Don't be in a hurry to pull this out, there are other things in the white jade altar, take them out and look at them."
I put my hand into the white jade altar and pulled out a piece of gold foil from it, on the gold foil there was a line of writing obviously written in blood, it was a date, the date was accurate to the hour.
I held that gold foil, almost shaking all over in disbelief, and I still felt as if everything seemed unbelievable after rubbing my eyes.
"This!!!" I said looking at my old man.
"Yes, you guessed right, this is your birth date." My old man said to me.
I almost fainted over, is really almost fainted, now this baby on the ground did not have the slightest movement, but I looked at him than when I looked at his soul is even more horrible, for some feng shui things, I am not an old white neck, even if I will not, heard too much.
"Am I a ghost? Did I die when I was just born? This so-called ghost is actually me as a child?" I asked, pointing to myself, and other than that, there didn't seem to be any way I could explain my birth date being buried with this ghostly fetus.
"You're wrong, he's your scapegoat, but he's not you, this is the Guo family's destiny, it might have started with your grandfather, or with me, you remember in your grandfather's notes about me committing a destiny flaw in my childhood with the five evils and three flaws, don't you? Some people said that I was committing a destiny defect, but He Zhenzhen said that it wasn't, in fact, it really wasn't, but because of your great-grandfather's relationship, the Guo family, from you to me, all have the same destiny." My old man said.
"Don't ask me why you would be fine didn't feel how weak you were as a child, it's because of the existence of this child." My old man said.
"He's my scapegoat?" I froze.
"Yes, you can say that the two of us are the five evils and three defects, or you can say that we are not, the questions about our entire destiny can be found in the Princess Tomb, but the Guo family's single transmission, you and I are not accidental, when you were a child, according to common sense, it is doomed to not live, so with this, it is like making a deal with him. "
"From your birth, to some strange phenomena afterward, your grandfather from the Li family three ghosts know this way to save you, from the yin indirect ghost child birth, to ghost child mounted jade altar, so that he sucked in the pagoda in the breath of the qi lotus, he preserved your peace. This can even be said to be for your sake, your grandfather made a deal with the devil's."
"This is also the reason why I want to hold this demonic child out, now this problem is given to you, if you pull out this lotus needle, Tiger can be saved, but if you pull him out, you will suffer many, many things that you did not expect, now all the decisions are in your own hands." Father said to me.
"Is that why you took this away?" I asked my old man.
"Right. To save you, or to save Tiger, take your pick." My old man said.
"I knew it was like this." At this time, suddenly from behind came a voice, listen to the voice, it is that one force regret Kunlun Lin Bachian.
My heart was happy, Lin Bachi once touched my old man's head and helped him to chop his yin root, if I am similar to my old man with the five disadvantages and three deficiencies of the destiny, then Lin Bachi can also easily and casually help me to chop my yin root?
"Why are you here?" My old dad went on guard.
"Don't pretend, those words, didn't you say them to me? But it's not destined to go as planned, I won't take on a disciple, there won't be a second Lin Xiaofan in this world either. Although according to the destiny you including you and San Liang are a bit similar, but your kind of yin and yang relationship is just forcibly have a bond with the netherworld, this is a relationship that can't be pulled apart, while Xiaofan, is a person who innately penetrates the yin and yang, this is not the same." Lin Bachan said.